I feel like this post was coming for a long time, but I just could never really find the words.
I started Bursts of Samm at a time where there was a lot of uncertainty in my life. I was in between shitty jobs, trying to balance school and couldn’t figure out what I wanted to do with my life. I went through years where I couldn’t really pinpoint my ‘purpose’. I thought that I could be like these bloggers that write posts and create beautiful content for a living – but, as everyone will tell you, that takes a lot of hard work and dedication. The truth is, Bursts of Samm has been more of a burden than a joy in the last few months. I’ve been so uninspired and I thought doing a serious website re-vamp would help me love blogging again. I thought landing my current job would provide the stability I needed to get back into the swing of things. After all, so many blogger peers seem to have perfected that balance. Unfortunately, I haven’t found it. All those things provided temporary sparks, and nothing more.
I realized that what I *really* want to focus on is my career and living life without the pressure/obligation of sharing it. I’ve always been an oversharer, but lately I’ve found it to be exhausting. I had an amazing July just going out, meeting new people, re-connecting with old friends and working on my social life – something that I’ve neglected for the last few years. Being able to go out and not feel the pressure (not sure if that’s the right word) to share it has been liberating. I realize I just don’t have the energy right now to write out full blog posts after work and on weekends. And I respect the hell out of my fellow blogger babes who seemed to have mastered this balancing act that I feel I never really got used to.
Anyone who has read my blog knows that my mind is always changing, so maybe in a few months I’ll be back. But my priorities have definitely shifted, and I finally understand that it’s not a bad thing. All my friends (and even my brother) have said that it seems like I’ve turned back the clock and am getting younger, and I love it. Life is good right now, and I appreciate all the support from anyone that I’ve met through my little corner of the internet.
You’ll definitely still find me on Instagram though!